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hello!
i'm back...lolz
seriously...i lost the...feel to blog nowadays
busy...n stuffs
i rather spend my free time doing other stuffs...
will elaborate more on this when i have time
which i doubt it =X
i really only feel like blogging when im stress
really stress...
like...i have to study for another test tomorrow
n im stuck...seriously stuck
no mood to study =(
n...oh look!! the last post was before the 1st test...
tmr's the 2nd test...
*cries*
why ya?
im so lazy...
im pissed with myself for being so lazy
but im not doing anything!
not attending lectures n tutorials is already bad enough
i stilllllll dont wanna study last minute
wth's wrong with me! T.T
argh~!
study study study....!!!
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
hello,
hmm...looks like im kinda abandoning my blog nowadays
well...that's cause...
im lazy basically i guess =X
n umm....dont really feel like pouring out here
n there isnt much thing to pour out anyways
many things have happened that i didnt blog about
but too much to update...
will take verryyy long
so i guess i shall just leave it out
but then again....to really think properly
it's just...normal
like...nothing much
for now...
just the usual i guess
study.....study........studyyy......
gosh...i can feel it coming
u know when i have to stay awake at night to study
when i really dont feel like studying
n i should be studying instead of blogging
yeap...in fact that's what i should be doing now
have this test tomorrow...30%!
god im so dead...
okay i know i keep saying im dead everytime
but really! this module aint got no finals
just...continuous assessment
n this test matters ALOT
i only started studying like...few hours ago?
damn...i keep telling myself must study harder for this but
look what happened?
recess week is coming!!
omg! so fast!!!
im just starting to warm up to the modules
n it's like...half of the semester gone already
=(
im gonna die again this semester...bahh~
Friday, January 23, 2009
why....when i think that every birthday is the worst it can possibly get...
the following one will be even worse?
why must it be this way?
m i that bad that evil that...i really shouldn't be in this world?
i really do not mind if nobody remembers or nobody cares or celebrate with me
im totally fine with that...i was without it for 19 years already
but why must people scold me?
it's bad enough that i hate myself
that i hate my birthday cuz i shouldnt even be born into this world
why must people make me feel even worse about myself?
scolding me because im feeling sad?
never even trying to understand how i feel?
i dont care wat bullshit ppl say bout appreciating ur birthdays
or it's good enough that ur parents didnt starve u to death
or at least u're still here
if u've never celebrated ur birthday for years
n the people closest to u dont even remember ur birthday
n people scold u because it's ur birthday
n hearing that they regret u were born into this world
then only u have the right to talk to me that way
otherwise just fuck off
i was reading my previous posts
i tried...i really tried to be happy
at the beginning i was always happy
i tried to stay optimistic
but somehow at the end of the day
i just couldnt pretend anymore
somehow...all the posts seem to indicate the same thing
it wont change will it?
i'm always alone
never otherwise
im beginning to hate the day
i really wish january 23 will not come
that this day will just disappear
i thought maybe it would change this year
but i guess it's still the same
somehow it's even worse
n it's just the beginning
maybe i should just disappear for the whole day
oh well...
twenty finally
i should grow up
can i disown my birthday?
from now on just...forget bout this day kay?
=)
Thursday, January 01, 2009
hiya!
how fast time passes >.<
still...wish all of u a wonderful year ahead
n may 2009 be a.....magical year 0.o
rightt...i doubt any of u reads my blog now haha
i'm just hoping 2009 will be a more exciting year...
if all goes well, i'm looking forward to have a blast xP
this year...i dont feel like going to countdowns lol
crowds r really not my thing >.<
n it's tiring to travel so far.......
n i always go for the fireworks only...
ahh well...not like i havent seen them before
i'm happy enough to stay home n listen to the fireworks lol
so...my new year resolutions!
uhh...i know i never really fulfilled all my resolutions the previous years but
i will try! >.<
right...
1. Exercise more. Without taekwondo i've been outta shape lately >.< (although 1st, i need to get a pair of socks LOL)
2. Fix my biological clock, as in...sleep earlier and wake up earlier. With classes in the mornings for most days, i cannot afford to sleep so late anymore.
3. Shake off the laziness, i cant keep skipping lectures!!! Must be a good girl n attend classes.
4. Be more thick skin n less self concious. Most of the things i dont dare to do because i'm shy. =S
5. Be less sensitive n not let my mind wander off so much.
6. Eat proper meals everyday. Cannot skip meals on the account of laziness. =S
kay...i guess that's it
i will try hard =]
ohh...1 more thing
someone else's resolution, so that person wont forget *tsk*
just borrowing space =P so the following is that person's writing =]
1. Be nicer to others around me, and try to control my temper.
2. Get rid of excess fat by exercising regularly.
3. Attend my classes and stop sms-ing during lectures. *shakes head*
4. Take care of my dietary habits and cut back on sweet foods/ drinks
lol......dont forget to keep up to it too ya =P
Monday, December 29, 2008
dear bloggie,
it's been a while....
i've been busy really...
going on trips n meeting friends n stuffs...
barely had enough rest at home
n i'm going back next week!!!
gaahhh...i still have lots of stuff i havent done yet >.<
neways....that's not the main topic today
it's kinda like a tradition to...uhh...reflect back on the past year
so...here it is~
2008...
well...
aiyy...how do i start =S
it's just another year
nothing much happened actually...
just....the usual
boring...
kay...this is not gonna work =.="
ohhhkayyy i'll try~
well...
the beginning of the year was quite hectic actually
in school, i decided to take computer science as my minor
with no prior programming experience, i was actually quite afraid to do it
n most, if not all of my friends were like 'r u crazy???' >.<
cuz most of them done it before n their opinion were all the same: crazy hard
still...i went ahead n not surprisingly, it was hard...really hard >.<
i was trying hard to catch up n....
believe me, after the 1st semester i really did study...hard
so umm....i did fairly well...ok better than my major in fact
made me really happy =3
also made me think....
i enjoy programming more than bio
is bio what i wanna do when i graduate?
but it's too late to change >.<
i also did japanese! had loads of fun in japanese classes
i was also quite worried taking another foreign language...
n japanese classes have crazy workloads
ironically, it's the 2 subjects that i feared most that pulled my cap up =X
in the 2nd part of the year...
same old same old....
studied...albeit not as much as the 1st half
but i guess its better now that im used to it
apart from studies...
my...grandma passed away the day after my birthday >.<
sigh....i cannot emphasize enough how bad i felt for having not done anything as a granddaughter
that really made me think....
n then my bro got married =3
happy for him that he can get married at last XD
n then....
i had some medical problems
still pending actually
fine...i know im in denial
i just....dont wanna face the truth
sigh.......
ahh...i played ro2 abit during my holidays
kay...more like alot >.<
but it was really really fun
n i got to know a few friends =3
but i couldnt play anymore when i went to uni
so...that's bout the end
doubt i will play anymore though....
the game got boring without any updates n most of the ppl i know left =(
what else?
ahh...i went for holidays!!!
i was hoping that i would get to go more holidays the year before
n boy...did i travel or wat >.<
went to redang in may XD
n road trip from kl to penang n back....
n then langkawi =D
the 1st time i drank so much @@
my face was sooo red...but i wasnt really drunk lol
really had fun in those places...
although...trips r tiring really >.<
as for other stuffs...
i umm...
something happened...quite unexpectedly
n 1 thing lead to the other n umm...
yeah....
quite surprising actually
but then again
i dont know >.<
u know how m i on this kinda stuff
reading back my previous posts
i really dont wanna trust anymore
im still....
right...i shall get back to this some other time
so...yah
that's bout it
boring year eh
unlike other years, i didnt really learn much
right...should i post this?
bahhh...since i already wrote so much~
hope....2009 will be better? lol
Sunday, December 14, 2008
hiya
it's been a long long time since i last updated =X
been really bz lately...barely had enough rest after my exams
exams! bahh...it's over now
no point moaning over it...
bottom line is i did really badly
so...it'll be a miracle if i can keep up my grades
ohh...n i think i will know my results tmr!
so fast T.T
supposed to be few days b4 xmas but...
there's this website to apply something n they will show ur cap before applying
so kinda like...umm...let u know how bad u did beforehand =(
i dont wanna check T.T
but i know the curiousity will get the better of me tmr =X
sigh~ hope i dont do toooo badly
after the exams my cousin n bro went to singapore
the day after =X no rest see...
brought them around...nothing special
just shop n eat n chor dai di n talk crap n lotsa pool lolx...
i reckon my skills r getting better now =P
almost everynight they will go play pool haha
after they went back the next day i had to prepare for a drive trip
no time to pack! =(
the trip was....tiring~
like last year, i kinda had to lead the whole convoy of...8 cars! =(
8!! imagine....very very stressful
there were a few probs like when the convoy broke up n they were all on their own
n some cars just thought they know the roads dam bloody well cuz they have gps n just left without us to have us chasing after them to bring them back to the correct way
anyway....in the end it all turned out okay i guess
1st time drove so far to penang, n 1st time that i didnt get lost in kl! =D
n now im home....
just wanna rest...dont wanna do anything
cuz from tmr onwards i'll be out, going to genting, n langkawi after that =.="
tired nyerrr~
oh well...think i'm used to being busy
this 2 days at home's making me abit lethargic
slept too much =X
so...that's that lol
dont really have the mood to blog nowadays =P
toodles~
Monday, November 17, 2008
hi
lol...it's ironic ya know
the closer i get to finals, which means the more busy i get...
the more i blog =S
i'm bored =(
prolly cuz during study week i hardly have any human contact
for the whole week i dont go out...dont meet ppl dont talk
well except when i go tapao my dinner
where the only conversation i have everyday is
'tapao ah?'
'en...this 1...this 1...n this 1.'
'2.40'
pathetic eh =/
can go crazy ya know
so i need to find some place to rant =D
sigh.......
i dont want to study ady lar =(
i want to give up can? T.T
it's only the beginning of the study week
n i'm sooo unmotivated already
cant wait for exams to be over
so i can go out play!!!!!!
but then >.<"
still need to get through with exams 1st
kay....better get back to my stats
urgh...hate stats too =(